secrets

Everyday I’m going to admit one secret It may be big or small, just something I tend to keep inside.

1. I’m scared of getting hurt
2. I’m afraid to tell the boy I like how much I like him
3. I think I’m stupid
4. I think I’m ugly, no matter what people tell me, like I don’t think I’m hideous but I’m extremely far from pretty
5. I hate that I think about boy’s so much
6. I want to know why he doesn’t like me
7. I get really crazy when I’m on my period
8. I wish boy’s were attracted to me
9. I wish I could get crazy drunk whenever I wanted to
10. I wish I could fly
11. I’m scared of growing up
12. I sing even though I know I’m awful
13. People scare me
14. My ex is a raging douche bag who should be socially shunned until he dies a sad lonely death
15. I’m not ashamed of my middle name
16. I’m awkwardly tall and embarrassed of it, but recently I’m begging to like it
17. I don’t like social events in small contained areas without alcohol
18. I hate dancing
19. I’m terrified of having sex
20. Vaginas freak me out more than anything in a horror movie ever could major props to straight guys and lesbians I could never do it
21. My family sometimes make me uncontrollably angry
22. My biggest fear is losing my baby sister
23. I’m a drama queen but I like to deny it
24. I’m very weird when I’m alone I talk to myself and dance a lot
25. I sometimes pretend my life is a movie
26. I like lyrics more than the song it’s self
27. I have a hard time being really mean even though I am capable of thinking awful things
28. I let people influences my choices
29. If I could have the perfect world I’d date the nerdy boy whose sweet and adorable but still athletic
30. I get bullied a lot and I know people think it’s funny but it really sucks, especially since it’s not like it’s from friends just a group of boys in my school who don’t like me
31. I cry over EVERYTHING
32. I hate my period 4 study hall and want to drop it being in it makes me literally sick
33. I feel left out a lot
34. I feel like no one likes me sometimes, even my friends
35. On days I think I look good I spend hours staring at myself wondering how I was capable of making myself look like that
36. I can only fight with someone when I’m really angry and lose interest in fights in usually 24 hours
37. Everyone in my school and suck my undeveloped dick
38. I know I’m capable of good grades, but I’m so lazy
39. I’d rather party than study
40. I wish everyone was more mature, not like I am…just overall
41. I feel like if I could keep my mouth shut life would be easier
42. I lost over 3 friends this year, all of which I was extremely close to
43. Girls are the meanest people on this planet
44. I binge eat like you don’t even know
45. I go to the gym all the time
46. I wish I was strong enough to starve myself
47. People don’t understand my thinking an new will
48. I wish I was a princess
49. When I grow up I want to go to outer space
50. My best guy friend, is the best boy in the world I’m so lucky to have him
51. The boy I like, gives me mixed signals
52. I don’t try to make everything into a big deal..it just happens
53. Being called fat brings me to tears instantly
54. Doing this always makes me feel better
55. I believe so strongly that there’s someone for everyone out there
56. I wish I was more like Carrie from sex and the city, she’s my idol..embarrassing I know
57. I ramble when I’m nervous
58. I’ll never be able to have my ears pierced again, and the scar tissue is one of the things I’m most self conscious about
59. My best friends are my world and they’re all beautiful even at there ugliest moments
60. I talk to god when I’m scared
61. I think that the worlds a very naive place
62. I’m very open to talk to I think sex is very easy to talk about, even though I’m not having it
63. I want a boyfriend that I can trust and fall back onto, half the time I don’t know if I like someone or if I’m just looking for reliability
64. I hookup with people just to feel wanted
65. The boys in my grade torment me for pleasure and sometimes it makes me think horrible thoughts about myself
66. I hate my town
67. The boy I like lives so far away 
68. I would hurt myself if blood didn’t make me sick to my stomach
69. I wish I could stop eating
70. I wish I could never get out of bed
71. I mostly like summer because I don’t have to have class with all the kids I don’t like
72. I’ve became very good at acting like things don’t bother me
73. I often feel like I’m being left behind while everyone moves on with there life
74. I like when boys smell good
75. I’m afraid of losing my virginity
76. When people look at me I assume they’re judging me
77. People think I’m very confident but I’m not at all and when people say I think I’m ‘hot shit’ it just makes it worse
78. Rude comments stay with me forever
79. I binge eat
80. I stare at myself for hours picking out flaws